I think most people go their whole lives without knowing what purpose they have in the world, or they figure it out too late. I realized, at some point over the last couple of days, that I am here to help people.
I can't say exactly what it was that made me realize this. Just that I noticed I kept saying to myself over and over, "I am the poster child for 'give til it hurts.' " Maybe that's not such a bad thing?
I'm still trying to process the irony though. That it sounds like I'm more or less willing to become a martyr, "for the greater good," when a certain someone has kind of always felt that way, and I chastised him for it. I'm a douchebag. Although that doesn't make you any less of one, either.
So now I've been tossing around the idea of being a living organ donor, like donating a kidney or a liver or bone marrow. Then I remembered my dad, a former alcoholic with diabetes, and I think I should save a kidney and my liver for him because he seriously might need it someday. So I think, for now, I'll look into placing myself on the national marrow registry. I think somehow I've come to believe that you can't fully appreciate life until you give it to someone else...not to mention the karma.
I talked about this with my mother, and it makes her very uncomfortable. She said that donating your organs when you die is "a very noble thing to do" but considers living donation to be something different. My mother is very bizarre and I don't understand how she grew up to possess her way of thinking. I guess I just wish people could be more open. Just imagine how different the world would be if everyone considered someone other than their own person. Maybe we wouldn't be in such a societal quagmire.
Sigh...I digress.
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hey sorry I havent checked this for a while. schools been hectic with everything piling on. I got your letter and I've sent you two back. I really do not trust ASU and I'd like to stay as far away from them as possible. And I dont trust their finance department as they have a habit of raising tuition for no reason all the time. Plus I am really getting ready to escape Arizona and its coming down to three choices... California, Colorado, or back East. I've had so much BS happen to me in Arizona that I dont think I could stand it much longer there. You are welcome to come with me to EAC if you want since its cheaper than ASU and just as good.
Not sure what I'm going to get an Associates in but I'm probably going to be there for one semester only since I plan on moving as soon as possible since I am sick of Arizona and want to get out of there as soon as possible.
However I would like to hang out with you this summer when I get back in July.
The play went really well. Sarah was fantastic and for days she was getting compliments from everyone on how good she was. She played the ditzy secretary. I recommend you see the movie so you can understand what I mean.
good luck with the organ donation thing. although I can understand your reasoning I feel kind of squeamish thinking about it.
Donation seems like it may not be a bad idea. Giving life to someone else is something that is wonderful. But I can't shake the feeling that maybe alive and whole you can help many more people. Maybe that's just because I can't really stand the thought of you being hurt, or being hacked up and distributed, but I have no say and probably shouldn't be saying my opinion anyway. I think most of the time you can serve the greater good by just helping a few people at a time, but at the same time I think one day we will all be needed for something much greater than any of us, something that will require us to go above and beyond the corrupt world and do things that will save millions, if not the human race. We've been on the brink of total destruction for a long time, and it's just a matter of time until someone nudges us over the edge. Too many people will think of their own survival, maybe it's time for people who will think of others.
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